Alastair and I

Ten years old; misting, happy days;

the smell of well-fired rolls,

thick, sweet orange juice and bowls

of porridge cooling on the window sill.

 

Boats and gulls coming in, going out,

or us, messing about at Newhaven.

Didn’t talk a lot, just tried to walk

round bits of Edinburgh.

 

Carefree days, two boys alone.

No plans to follow today or tomorrow.

Botanical Gardens, Ferry Road,

Granton Pier, when boats unload.

 

We didn’t talk a lot, just walked a lot

round bits of Edinburgh and that nearby pier

with boats and gulls coming in, going out;

or me and Alastair just messing about.

 

I worried once when Mr Crombie

dived off that pier in gath’ring fog

then disappeared in the filthy brine

like a jobbing Airedale dog.

 

My first real panic; the dirty trawlers,

the monied men in shirts and collars;

The start, stop, stutter of firing boats,

the silent bobbing of mooring floats.

 

Surely suicide was not for him!

Was I to know he came for a swim

every day? But where was he now?

Stuck under the bow of some dirty boat?

 

He reappeared. I almost cried

and tried to show I didn’t care.

He dried his hair; we went to play

on the harbour wall that day.